vinita sharma

Romance Author / Lifestyle Blogger

Embracing the Motherhood Journey

A couple of days ago, I found myself feeling unusually down—a kind of sadness that came out of nowhere. Usually with me, the feeling lasts for 30 minutes and then instantly goes away. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it at first, but as I sat with those feelings, it hit me: as my child is growing and I’m loving every single moment of being a mom, I realized I’m also getting older.

And with that thought came a wave of fear, mixed with regret and longing. Here I am, pregnant at 38, cherishing the beauty of carrying another life while simultaneously feeling like time is slipping through my fingers. I don’t feel old, but I’m reminded that these years— these relatively young years— won’t last forever.

It’s not that I haven’t enjoyed my life— I’ve loved and lived it. But between motherhood and pregnancy, there are moments where I’ve forgotten to live for me.

Looking Ahead

Once this baby is born and I’ve recovered, I’m determined to make myself a priority again. I don’t mean I’ll stop being the mom my kids need— I’ll always be there for them. But I also want to be the me I need.

That means hitting the gym, not just to lose the baby weight, but to feel strong and confident again. I want to slip into my old clothes and feel like myself. I want to throw on some makeup, curl my hair, wear my favorite earrings, and step out feeling fabulous.

I don’t think wanting that makes me vain or selfish. If anything, I think it makes me human. As women—especially as moms—we give so much of ourselves to others that it’s easy to forget that we matter, too.

A Reminder for All Moms

If you’re feeling the same way, take comfort in the fact that you’re not alone. It’s natural to have days where you feel like you’ve lost a part of yourself in the amazing chaos of motherhood. It’s okay to miss the freedom of your pre-kid life.

What’s important is recognizing that you can have both. You can be a loving, present mom and still take the time to care for yourself. You can enjoy the early years with your kids while also making space to rediscover who you are outside of motherhood.

So here’s my promise to myself—and maybe it can be yours, too:

  • I’ll look at postpartum in a positive light and think of the steps I’ll take toward my goals when my body recovers.
  • I’ll enjoy the messy bun and no-makeup look, but I’ll also get glammed up and go out.
  • I’ll be the best mom I can be while remembering that I’m more than “just” a mom.

Motherhood is a journey, and so is rediscovering yourself. I’m not quite there yet, but I’m on my way. If you’re in this phased of life too, let’s hold on to the hope that we can balance it all— the love we pour into our families and the care we give ourselves. We deserve both.

Let’s raise our babies, but let’s also raise ourselves.

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